Your words linger around my mind an entire day. I fear reality today, fear that your words are too true. Why can't I ever think the way you do? You made me hate myself today. 

And I fear for the worst every second. I anticipate the sleepless nights, the wet pillows. I will look forward to my swollen eyes and a messy mind. I will live forever with the word "guilts" across my forehead. I'm not proud of me, why should you be?

Guide me, for I'm lost. But I understand that you probably don't want to anymore.