very confused.

i tried to call kas for almost a million times but i think she's not at home now...

i'm sad, i don't know what am i doing now is correct or wrong, i'm having pains all over my body. Sometimes i just wish she dissapear from my world, or i'll just poof off like that.

i'm damn confused, i don't know what should i do next. I dunno whether i should step in or just step aside and pretend nothing happen...

my maid's not helping either, its like she knows something but she refuse to tell. her lansi face makes me mad, cant she tell me wats wrong..?

my mum's not around, no one to confort me or answer my questions, i get really heart-pain when i think about the house is so empty and its super scary.

finally, kas answered my phone. i think this is the first time i cried over the phone, i really love her, she gives me happiness and helps me with my problem, when im quite ok later, i'll call her again.

im confused, scared, terrified, sad, angry and i feel very very funny.